**Festive Cheer**

""Laugh Your Heart Out, Dance In The Rain, Cherish The Moment
Ignore The Pain, Live, Laugh and Love..Forgive & Forget
Life's too short to be Living with Regrets"

I awake each day taking each one as a new day and alot of times i am surprised that i become a total opposite of yesterday.. While i do not regret the words that spilled out a few posts ago yet i am also totally appalled at the inner anger in me all these while, especially at this festive period..I am one who looks forward for xmas the time, the year starts, i am always an advocate for love, sharing and etc but this year i look more like the grinch or plain ol scrooge..

Let me start off by first apologising to one and all, fren or foe, its the yuletide period and i am all for second(or more for some) chances.. While i will not lie and say i do not hold grudges i can admit i forgive quite alot.. Today is one of the day where i feel a third eye opening up, i see things clearly and i let my inner self shine thru..Been reading alot, seen alot these two days.. A weekend for myself and am i glad that i had this weekend to pick up the pieces...

One major reason for me to be like this is a chat with someone i had, she was sumone impt to me and still is but only the difference is how she is impt to me.. Alot of us meet someone and know that this are the people you bring with you to the grave, this person i knew for sure, at her young tender age she showed me maturity and inspired me to alot of things... she caused me pain like i never knew, she made me cry.. She made me hate myself, hate everything i have about me.. But i forgave her along time ago and a few days ago i saw her side of the story and truth be told i would have done the same thing and ppl who were with me through my times knew i never blamed her and always understood why it happened but to hear it from her made a lot of difference in my life.. Alot of people know that while i have let go of the idea of being with her a long time ago but there was alot of skeletons i neva cleared out of my closet and while we are close now we had alot in the way each time we talked and it was an awkward r/s..But i dnt knw about how she feels but i feel its over and i am so much clearer... I knew why i spent so much of emotions on her and till today i stand by the fact that it was all worth it.. She is with someone now and while i don't know much about him i can see she is in good hands and i am with every ounce of my heart am happy for her...

I am not saying she is not anything in my life anymore but what i am saying is like frens and old enemies its just one stumbling block that is holding on and not letting you move on, find that past relive it.....face your demons and find how good your life can be when the past is but a distant memory.. i have learnt alot in that one conversation with her and i am glad we did it fishy...

Another reason i did this was because of this show i watched where people came on and talked about experiences that changed their life.. from a guy who was about to marry his childhood sweetheart but lost her to a shooting not related to her.. To a lady who saw her loved one try to kill her, to a boy who never knew his father and used his grandfathers love to become a talented boxer.. I see a young boy who never knew his father and rebels to get some attention.. Theres so much negativity in this world that we do not need to add to it, the real empty basket is the one called love and peace why dont we give it a shot instead....Nothing special and maybe alot of what i saw could be just one edition of a newspaper but it struck a note with me.. its ten days to Christmas and Santa's back.. One exception though i accept notty gals too... :P

On a finishing note i kinda got the person i wanna be and the mantra for my life.. Yin-yang.. I wanna embrace the fact that the good comes with the bad.. The pretty comes with the ugly and pain is a proxy for love.. Life is short, life is too little for petty regrets, live each life with a smile and i think lifes well lived.. Merry Xmas People...



**P.S i need people to hang out in town with, got alot of off days and the more the merrier you dig..Msg/Call/Drop A Note**